ShekarKhand

Yesterday I was listening to an interview with a 20-year-old Iranian girl who said that "we are not afraid of dying" (the interview was broadcasted from NPR station and it was related to Iran nuclear power) Right after that they a 30-year-old guy who has a kid and he said that I am worried about my kid; He thought that Iran should negotiate with other countries about the nuclear power.

May be some other time I write about the interview, the 20-year-old girl or about "shahaadat". But now I just want to write about fear of dying ...

I was thinking when I was 20-year-old it was easier for me to die. Obviously, I had my parents and I knew that they become very sad if I die so I didn't want to die now it is getting harder for me. Thinking about what happens to me after Behnam dies scares me and I think it is the same for him. I think this is exactly how you become attached to life. It starts with love. All your life you're looking for love and once you find it, it is so unbelievably sweet that you don't want to lose. You underside that what you've read and heard about it, is all true like the 30-year-old man you will have kids and you're worried more about both your kids and yourself (to take care of your kids.)
I have seen a man who lost his wife. I have looked his eyes when he was talking about the love of his life. There was a sorrow in his eyes that is really hard to describe but I don't think he was a sad man in general. He has two kids to take care of, a good job and some friends ... The life goes on.
I am sure that I am more attached to life than when I was 20 yet still I don't think I am afraid of dying. Who knows may be after having a kid thing changes ...